Starting Small

Many of you know that I have been on Weight Watchers since about October. I had a goal of losing 23 pounds. Most of the comments that resonnated from friends where, "Serious? or You're already thin".. I love when the change you are making is not something that others may actually see.

One morning I was getting ready for work and I could not, for the life of me, button up my pants. I mean come on! I have NEVER had that problem! So I grabbed another pair, then another... NOTHING fit. I turned to my jeans, although not business casual, but none the less they fit...right?? Out of 7 pairs, ONE fit. And the word "fit" is a loose term here. Disgusted..I left for work. This went on for a few weeks and yes I wore the same pair of pants every day. Sad right..

I had been complaining to John about my weight gain and the usual things were said of, "I don't eat that bad" and whatever lie I told myself. I was struggling as a wife, mother, and friend at this point.. All because of weight you ask? YES.. the gain not only darkened my heart, but it just made me more on edge, unhappy, and depressed. I tried my best to just be happy with what I have and maybe this is the body I will have till I die, who knows.

At work one day, surfing the internet while eating a Jack in the Box Big Cheese burger with pickles... YUMM I looked at Weight Watchers. Read about it and thought, for only $50 dollars for 3 months... it can't be that hard, maybe John will do it too. So I signed up.. No looking back. I'm not going to talk about change and no do it. Im tired of complaining and lying to myself, where has that gotten me!

Now, in all fairness, I do cook, but nothing over the top. I can follow basic instructions and swirving from the norm (recipe directions) is SO NOT ME. I would print off a recipe each night before leaving work. Stop at the local Fresh and Easy bu the kids school, then upon arriving home begin to make dinner. This sparked a certain "fun" side and I loved cooking! And it was GOOD. It didnt taste like diet food. So in reality I wasnt on a diet, I was still eating fabulously, i just needed to cook it and eat smaller portions.

First week lost 2 pounds, and each subsequent weigh in's that first month I lost 2 pounds. After the first month I steadily have been loosing 1 pound a week, with an occasional 2. Today I weighed in and have lost 15 or the 23 pounds I had set out to lose in the 3 months of being a member. The best part of all of this, I had hardly exercised due to time and illness. But I made it through ALL the holiday's, still losing weight....and also made it through some travel as well! Talk about motivation. I am full of it. Measurements have drastically reduced, weight has gone down, I am back into clothes I havent seen in forever!

Starting small and heathly is what has gotten me to my "almost" goal. I have been getting into a few items comfortably that I have had for ages! So when I come flying out of the bedroom yelling, "Look! Look! Look!" My husband has grown accustom to saying, "That's great!". I still have 8 pounds to go, but the difference is, the motivation that this has brought me in my personal life and for every day house projects! I have energy, I feel great! It is amazing what a little weight can bring down in your life! 

For those of you that wondered, yes John did eventually join, but it took about a month for him to see me eating better and losing the weight. Not sure if he just didnt belive it or not. We have both been working hard and small goals have been met and smashed over the past 2 months. The best part is that we are doing it the healthy way! 

Being a photographer lover and aspiring to have my own business one day, we will post photos eventually! I have my goal to get to and for me it will be getting that last 8 pounds off and doing a "trash the dress" photo shoot with John. It will just make things full circle for me. I have talked him into it, but we also want to see the difference it can make on film! Once those are done, I promise to post. In the mean time, this is what I have so far! (disclaimer: I went to upload this picture and got a short fright at the idea of a few being on line, but motivation right??)

I am breathing heavily looking at this and no I am not dunking my son, he is kicking and trying to swim. I never want to see this body again. I will take some after photos once I get to my goal! It is all part of the journey right? We have to start somewhere! :)